I’ve Decided I’m Not Giving Up… 

I used to not like the worship song “Echo.” I thought it was silly. I think it was the word “Echo” and the techno beat, I just couldn’t get into it. 

But then I heard an acoustic version and the words snatched me.

“In every season, You keep repeating

Promises to me, Now there’s no stopping

What You have started, ‘Til it is complete

When my mind says I’m not good enough

God, You’re enough for me

I’ve decided I’m not giving up

You won’t give up on me

Your love is holding on and it won’t let go

I feel it breaking out like an echo

Echo in my soul” 

I have been in a season where I wanted to give up on a lot of things.

 A place where the life you envisioned for yourself is shattered by reality. When you are faced with wondering if you still can continue in the “work” you feel you are called to or if you are now disqualified, have a voice or anything to say anymore? Where you wonder if the desires and things in your heart are to be held on to or do you lay them to rest? Do you keep walking with your head held high or go hide for a little bit?

I sang this song a few weeks ago and the words grabbed my soul again. It reminded me that the love of a “father” doesn’t let go. It is holding on to me even when I am not. It reminded me that “his” love is shed abroad in my heart, and echoes throughout my soul. 

Just envision an Echo or a ripple of love and over and over it is filling up every part of you, bouncing around like a pinball machine, love, love, love- that won’t let go. It’s a beautiful thing. 

This last year I wasn’t sure if I wanted to trust this great “father”, with my life anymore. Or maybe in some areas but in others surely I needed to take “control” and “write my own story”. 

Yet gently in small ways and huge ways, this great mysterious, faithful, power of goodness, “keeps repeating “his” promises to me”, and has shown me that the earth is full of riches and beautiful gifts and nothing makes a “father” happier than to give “good gifts” to his children. 

So I opened my heart and outstretched my arms and said “I’ve decided I’m not giving up, cause you won’t give up on me. ” 

My dears, there is no stopping what is meant for you. You cannot miss your calling. Who you are and who you are becoming is all part of the journey that is yours and yours alone. And LOVE WILL get you there. 

For some the journey may hurt a lot more than you could have ever imagined, but it will not be wasted, it will produce. 

“Not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope. Now this hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”

Be encouraged my dear, this “hope” will not disappoint, there is good for you and there is love that has been poured into our hearts. Can you feel it? Can you hear it? Love is resounding in your soul, just like an Echo and it does NOT let Go.